The bus broke down the following morning about 120 km short of Ankara. We were stranded for one and a half hours or maybe two. It was the start of a terrible day.
The bus breaking down did do two good things for me. First, it gave me a chance to use the bathroom. The bus hadn't stopped once since the hour stop for breakfast at 3:30 in the morning. Don't get me started on the Ramadan thing again. I used the bathroom and my mood got slightly better. The other nice thing about the bus breaking down was that I no longer had to endure my seat getting kicked by the loud little boy sitting behind me. When our rescue bus came, I sat toward the back and closed my eyes. Thank Allah I thought. Then it happened. That same little boy... of all the places his mom decided to sit on the whole Allah-condemned bus was right behind me. The kicking soon commenced. I meditated until the whole world disappeared.
In Ankara I had a terrible time. I was trying to get to the place where I had left my luggage. I needed to call my friends so I went to an internet café. The microphone didn't work. I went to a different internet cafe and again it wasn't working well enough to make a phone call. I decided to walk to the bus stop where I needed to go and then figure things out. Instead I got lost. I walked and walked. It was hot and I felt frustrated and tired. How had I so successfully navigated my way all across the east of Turkey but couldn't seem to handle Ankara. Just then I realized something that gave me great joy. I was standing in front of Kuğulu Park. I had not seen the park since the first time I came to Ankara to surprise my friend Bürin. I stood in the park for a few minutes.I decided to take a trip down a seemingly old memory and so I walked the street of Tunalı again looking in the shops and thinking about getting some ice cream. Then I came to a point that looked familiar. It was the start of Kennedy Caddesi where Bürin lives, but I had only seen it in Winter. The whole place just looked so vibrant now. I walked down her street and came to the door where the great surprise had happened nearly two years ago. I sat there for 10 minutes or so and then walked over to ring the doorbell. I paused. I didn't want to bother anybody. Then someone else was entering the apartment and held the door for me. I hesitated and explained my hesistation. The woman let me use her phone and I called Burin. She was home and so I came up. I flopped down on her couch and just breathed for a minute. I was so stressed out. I hadn't wanted to bother her, I needed to call my friends with the luggage, I was exhausted, and my mind was in several different places. But I was so happy and relieved to see Bürin. She made coffee and we had baklava. We talked and I wanted to be nowhere else. We called Ro from the computer and for the first time in 6 years, the three of us talked where we could all see each other. So Bürin saved the day. In the evening we ordered a pizza and then had an apple. Later, I left after a heart-felt goodbye.